ehs. got back my o level chi results alread.
this morning was damn enthu. trying to mask e unhappiness that occured this morning. eventually. all those feelings were disspelled later in e day. lol. this mood ended when i got back my results. b3. wtf.
lol. expected either this or an a2. but of course e a2 would be more den welcome. retaking it again la. anyway still need to study for prelim that is counted for e first 3 months. i need to make it to e jc. i don`t see a future elsewhere. poly life is totally alien to me. won`t be able to face my family too. there`s always expectations to live up to.
just hope my eng will obtain a distinction. better yet if it`s a 1.
oral was alright. initially was quite nervous. but during e conversation, especially at e second part. i warmed up to e invigilators. e one on e left (prettier one) was quite nice. she commented on me. before i left. said something like 'you`re quite a self-aware individual.' good or bad? lol.
ehhs. i know when they say its ok. its really not. i can tell.
it`s on their faces. written as plain as day. the disappointment. wtf. as if i wanted it that way. at least she`s better. encouraging. e other? asking. questioning. probing. demanding. always.
i`m quite sick of that. i`ll study ok. i`ve come round.
just hope that it really pays off.
